countdown to the beginning

About this time last year I was in LALA land. I was being picked up from my Christmas party, swooned, adored, called. Now I'm packing up my life from the past 2 years at the Rainbow Palace and moving on. It's rather amazing how things have changed.

Today was my final exam for my class and I couldn't be happier. This week is high stress. Moving, packing, school, meetings, new home. I can't wait until Sunday morning. I want to shop for Christmas presents, decorate my house and bake. Something I haven't been able to do because it just means I have more stuff to pack up.
It's been really difficult coming home every night to an empty, dark house. Packing and cleaning everything myself then going to bed in an empty bed. It's strange what you get used to.

Tonight I got home, made dinner and put on Casino Royale. Everyone needs a little eye-candy to take their mind off of things. To feel attracted to someone. Perhaps even feel sexy, something I haven't been feeling lately. Rather, I've felt rejected and ignored. But I know this will change soon enough.
I've actually felt guilty of knowing what I wanting and having the gumption to actually state what I want and need in my life. I refuse to feel that way again.
I'm tough, I'm ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, okay. ~Madonna

I think, therefore I'm single. ~Lizz Winstead


Finally, I leave you with:
The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again.

oh, and this hot studd: